Love + Dance + Food = Life.

I miss you..

And it just tears my heart up to see the girl who I’ve had so many memories with, the girl who I’ve talked to on the phone for so long, the girl I’ve only seen twice but still love, the girl that’s completely perfect in my perspective, the girl I can finally say I’m in love with.. With one of my close friends.. He doesn’t even know it either.. He just thinks I’m being a good friend to her by telling him to take care of her.. I teared up writing it to him.. Thinking about all our past memories.. The times we just talked on the phone and fell asleep and not even remembering falling asleep, the times you would sleep talk to me and tell me funny stories, the times you were sleep talking and I would tell you how much I love you, the random txts saying, “I love you.(:”, I miss everything.. I know I should stop trying.. I know there’s no point in trying to get you back.. But I just want you to know that if you’re happy with him or any other guy I’ll be happy too.

Sike.

You aren’t mine anymore. I miss you too much to say I’ll be happy if you are.. I’m jelous. Jelous of all those guys that get to see you at school everyday. They don’t know how lucky they are to just lay their eyes on you.. I miss hearing your voice.. I miss feeling true happiness.. I know I don’t need a girl to be happy. But you just make me feel  Invincible. Everytime.. everytime I think about our happiest moments I just want to cry.. But there are no more tears to shed. They’ve all been drained from my body the moment I found out you guys were together.. I can’t cry anymore. I feel so intangible When I’m around you.. Nothing’s the same without you.. Your support.. your amazing voice… You’re the most amazing girl I’ve ever met and no one out there can ever compare greater than you.

You like him now. He likes you.

I had a feeling you liked him.. When I found out it was true and it was him, my heart shattered. Especially when he’s one of my close guy friends.. He doesn’t know I still like you so I don’t blame him.. Damn. I actually cried. I only cry when I actually feel it.. When I actually feel loved. And I did feel loved by you.. You were the perfect girl. You aren’t too girly, you’re a positive person, you always seem to make me smile whether I’m sad or not, you play COD more than I do, you are a beautiful person inside and out. I fell for your personality.. We met on the phone, introduced by our close friend Bianca. I didn’t know what you looked like whatsoever. All I knew about you were that you’re a girl and I think you have a cute voice. We talked and talked til one of us fell asleep. I found out you live right across from where I used to live and where my friend lives. I visited and I finally was able to see the amazing girl I’ve been talking to for awhile. When I first laid eyes on you I thought, “Damn. She is one of the most beautiful girls I’ve ever seen.” and at that moment you left a smile on my face that could light up the sky. When I thought about the reasons why I liked you I never included looks. That was just a plus. During the 3 1/2 months we were together.. I was the happiest guy you could ever see. You’re all I’ve ever wanted.. Well, back to what I was saying.. I felt so much love from you and I loved you.. I love everything about you still now. But you’re gone now.. It’s so hard to just.. forget. To pretend nothing happened between us. To pretend I’ve never loved you. To pretend everything’s okay.. I know you’ll never give me a second chance. I know I was hella clingy.. I’m sorry that I was.. You were just the girl of my dreams. You are the girl of my dreams.. and I just didn’t want anyone else to have you.. I know it sounds selfish but it’s true. I really like you.. I really never wanted to say it but I think I’m in love with you..

I just wish I had the chance to kiss you and say I love you one last time..